Our Baby Thomas: I am Grateful

Friday, March 20, 2009

I am Grateful

I wanted to follow Skys example and post a list of all the things I am grateful for. Thanks Sky, after reading your post, I was prompted to think of my own grateful list.

I am grateful for my children, that includes our little Thomas. I am grateful for my days as a mother. I am grateful for my Husband, I am grateful for the love that he showers on me daily. I am grateful for my home and the protection and privacy it provides me. I am grateful for our jobs and the income they provide.

I am grateful for memories the easy ones and the hard ones. I am grateful for family and friends and their relationships (good and bad) because they become living memories. I am grateful for my experiences even when they don't seem positive, they are always positive because I will always learn something about myself or others.

I am grateful for my mind and my health. I am grateful that I have freedom to make choices about my life, where I go and what I do. I am grateful that my God loves me, even though I know he just cant help it.

I am blessed also. Thank you.

2 comments:

SkyMarch 20, 2009 at 6:05 PM
even through all our grief it's nice to have a reality check sometimes.
we need to open our eyes and appreciate all the good things we do have :)

thinking of you
xxxx
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kyouellMarch 26, 2009 at 6:55 AM
This is a good reminder to all of us. Thank you for writing me. Your blog is lovely. I have 2 sets of photos too, and that second set was taken with exactly the same mindset: he'll want to see these later and, subconsciously, I needed the distance from the harsh reality. I've added you to my reader, I'll be back.
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About this blog

Thanks for visiting my blog. These are my memory pages. Dedicated to the life of our baby Thomas who spent 4 1/2 months in the neonatal intensive care unit at the Royal Childrens Hospital in Melbourne, this collection of writing and pictures documents his life from his birth in October 2007 until he passed away in February 2008.
I have posted the emails that I wrote to family and friends and some of the photos that I took. Some of the poetry was written by me and some of it I have found in my bereavement travels.
Grief is not logical, I do not know where it will take me day by day, but I have found that it is better if I don't resist, it is better if I let it take me where it will.

Our Beautiful Baby Thomas

Thomas was born on 17th October 2007 and he died 135 days later on the 28th February 2008.
Thomas was born with Down Syndrome, Tracheal Osophageal Fistula and Osophageal Atresia, Tracheal Broncheo Malasia and Pulmonary Hypertension, he had a lot to fight.
On the night he was born Thomas was transferred to the Royal Childrens Hospital in Melbourne for surgery to repair his Osophageus, that is when the Pulmonary Hypertension was discovered and surgery had to be stopped. We waited 15 weeks in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit until he was well enough to have the surgery again. But in the weeks following surgery the Pulmonary Hypertension became more and more severe, to the point that the doctors told us that there was nothing left to do.
Thomas died with me and his daddy and his brother and his nurse. We held him and talked to him, we watched him go, quietly he slipped away.
I will never be the same again.